This blog basically started due to the need to express myself and put some of my thoughts out into the universe. I have never been a writer and as I am sure you can tell, writing does not come naturally for me. Finding the right words and keeping my train of thought succinct is a struggle for me. I can say that this has been very cathartic and good for my spirit, heart, and mind. There is something so powerful about writing something down. It is like the thoughts become real and you have to face the thoughts. I am not always proud of what I say or think but by writing exactly how I feel, I think I am able to digest the information, change and grow. My feelings are that I have grown closer to my son by writing this blog. By reading my earliest entries, I am reminded of how I felt at the beginning of this blog. This helps remind me to keep the connection with my son open, available, and heart-felt. Now, I can’t say I am always on and that this connection is always super strong. I do feel though that our bond is stronger. I know I am not the perfect mother but I work on recognizing and improving my deficiencies. I still want to be a better mom and continually strive to be the mom CB deserves.
June 12, 2015Worries, Fears, & Ramblings